2002-09-04

I think it started the other day when husband and I were watching the little league world series on TV. Here were all these 10, 11, 12 year old kids from Kentucky and Japan looking all serious and pretending to be their favorite ball players, much like my brother did at that age. Yet, they were good players (not that my brother wasn't but he was never in the little league world series). All I could think though was "awww how cute is that kid" about like every kid. He's so little! I squealed to husband who just rolled his eyes. What! don't you think he's cute? More eye rolling. They were cute. Sometimes they'd show their height and weight and I'd squeal about how serious a kid 4 feet 11 and 90 pounds could look. Then they showed a replay of one of the cute Japanese kids getting hit in the eye with a ball that had been pitched at him. Then I realized that there were all these parents in the stands watching and cringing and praying, please don't let my child get hurt, all while cheering their kids on. THEN it hit me--that could be me in the stands. That could be me watching my daughter play soccer hoping and praying that she doesn't get hurt all while cheering her on. That could be me holding my breath as a pitch narrowly misses my son's face. I had to stop watching.

We went to IL this last weekend and had a good visit with BIL, SIL, MIL, S and E. BIL and SIL told the kids about the babies--they hadn't told them before. It helps that S's kindergarten teacher is expecting a baby "around trick or treat time." They had lots of questions for us, but not he awkward kind. Mostly S wanted to know if "the babies" would like to eat ice cream or pizza or grandma's noodles. E wanted to know what their names were. E also wanted to know, were they still there. BIL predicts two boys and E predicted a boy and a girl. S wanted to name them after his other cousins. While we were there though, I had another flash. S and E are so different and when they try to "share" the computer (you have to help) it is like a zoo. S is convinced he is a computer expert and his auntie Lil knows nothing about the computer if she can't pull up spiderman pictures in 5 seconds. E wants to play that Barbie game they did "last time" none of these are bookmarked on grandma's computer (bad grandma). It was frustrating. Then I realized--I'm going to have 2 children just like them! It was scary. It was so scary that I couldn't deal with the idea of twins. I just couldn't.

Husband wanted to buy a book--pregnancy with multiples. I let him, but I couldn't even begin to read it. I'm just now getting freaked out about 2 babies at once. Little late doncha think. I guess at least I won't be like SIL who when E starts school is going to have to take kids to 2 different schools as S will be in second grade which is in a different building than kindergarten, but it gets worse, when E goes to first grade, S will move to another building! I don't think til S is in 6th grade that they will be in the same school. At least with twins, they'll be in the same grade. Yeah, bright side--gotta find them where I can right now.

Oh and speaking of bright side--maternity pantyhose. I bought some and man, I should have been wearing it before I got pregnant! I bought a lot of clothes in IL, which is weird but I actually found a store (Bergners) that had a maternity section with more than one rack! I didn't however buy a bra. I tried but believe it or not the one I found that fit was not in the Sears computer and they wouldn't sell it. This teenaged girl looks right at me and says, sorry i can't sell you this. I was like, what I don't look pregnant, trust me chickie I am. but she's all like it isn't in the computer. I said-- well it says 21.50 on it, ring me up for $21.50 and I'll pay you. But no. I told her there was a whole rack of them, she didn't believe me, like I found this bra in the fitting room and wanted to buy it. Finally she got someone to check it out but by then I was soooo mad that I was leaving. Phooey. So no bra. So I guess I go to plan B, which is either attempt to buy same bra at my sears store OR order online from Penney's.

I'll keep you posted.

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