Stalking the Stacks with Library Lil
*Stalking the Stacks with Library Lil* |
2009-01-19 Last week I put together quite the pity party for myself. Somehow the combination of my impending 40th birthday, the college alumni magazine, and facebook made me feel like a colossal failure. When faced with classmates who are doing such exciting things, my little world feels dull and uninspired. I'm not a doctor or a humanitarian or even wildly successful at some business venture. I'm just me, a mom who works sometimes to earn money to help pay the bills. I'm just plodding along.I'm mostly over it now. I'm not sure what exactly pulled me out. I know that I chose motherhood over career success. I know that being a mother isn't an insignificant thing. I know that the world needs people plodding along paying their bills and raising their kids. I don't think any of it helped the pity party. I served cake and ice cream too and I don't think that helped much either. I just finished reading Three cups of Tea and would actually strongly encourage you to read it too. Although, you can skim through the boring climbing parts if you want. Between that book and Barack Obama, I'm feeling more restless than pitying. I feel like I *need* to do something, something beyond writing a check. Not that writing a check, or knitting hats and mittens for the salvation army aren't good plans, or helpful, but I'd like to be a bit more actively involved. I'm just not sure what it is I am needed to do. But I'm being patient, and praying and trying to leave my mind open for the answer. I'm sure I'll keep you all posted. So that's what's been going on here. |
